imma share something right now

i dont want harry to be in my city. i just dont.

i dont want to wake up at 6am and take a most likely freezing shower. i dont want to go to minas (the event he’s gonna be at) at 8 and staying until 9 (when he gets there) almost throwing up because im too excited and nervous. i don’t want to be from 9 till 10 am following harry around minas trying to talk to him or get a picture. i dont want to go to mineirao (the stadium) in a hurry to try and see harry but from far. i dont want to come back to my house after the game and cry because i didnt get to hug him. i dont want to feel jealous of the people who got to meet him. i specially dont want to feel jealous of the goddamn sick kids who got to meet him and i specially dont want to feel bad because im jealous of some girl who has terminal cancer that got to meet him.

i hate this. i hate feeling like this.